My sculptures are beautiful and delicate, yet made by violent deformation of materials. They are shiny and alluring, yet twisted, imbalanced, and sharp. They capture the fragile balance I strive to maintain during my mixed state bipolar episodes. Mixed state is the simultaneous experience of depression and mania that manifests as intense aggression and intrusive thoughts. I experience mixed state episodes the most and though at times they are terrible, disruptive, and uncontrollable, they force me to think about how I want to live my life and what I need to do to take care of myself. I believe that in my madness there is also beauty that gives me clarity, drive, and purpose.
